Love to me at this point is still a mystery, I don’t know what it is or how it formed. All I know is that every time I see his face, hear his voice, feel his touch … every single molecule in my body have this electrical shock to it. LOL sorry if this doesn’t make sense much but this is the best I can update you guys in on my life right now. Sorry for not being on here lately. I’ve been too busy living my beautiful reality. Not that I forgot all about my amazing followers on here. I love each and single one of you but it is time for me to start living the real fairy tale. It is no longer something I imagined on here. I no longer have to envy looking all the couples pictures of them kissing or smiling or being happy.
Ever since this “mysterious” boy walks in, he made my life completely turns upside down (in a good way) … I find myself doing things I never thought I could for anyone due to the past. But with him, it’s different. To be honest, I haven’t even told him this but I don’t know even know what exactly he is doing either lol but whatever he is doing I hope he isn’t going to stop because it makes me feel more alive than ever. I’ve been walking around this planet thinking there’s no such thing as “love” at least not the way I have been told when I was little when the prince come into your life and rescue you.
The real world is so scary, even now. I tried so hard still to hide the fear I have for it because I’m afraid if I show the world how I really feel it could nearly break me. There are still things that I have not yet told him not because I don’t want to but every time I bring myself up to, I just couldn’t. Maybe, someday, one day I will be able to tell him everything. For now, I just want him to be happy, I want him to have the world, I want more than nothing in this world besides his happiness. He deserves all of it.
How do you bring yourself up to tell someone you love that you don’t have much time left to live? You don’t. You sucked it up and make the best out of it. Sometimes, lying about certain things to make that person happy is the best thing you can do. I don’t know what to do at this point, I”m really scared and alone. This is just something I have to do on my own, for the sake of everyone I love especially him.
Anyway, I hope all of my bloggers and amazing followers out there can someday find their own definition of “love” because trust me once you do, NOTHING in this world can take that away from you so please promise yourself that once you do find it, hang on tight to it. Love is amazingly beautiful but if you don’t hang on tight to it. It could all turns into air and fly away with the wind.
Good luck on your journey. The chapter of my book is coming to an end. I love you all. Muah <3